Friday, November 10, 2006

Breast Cancer Anxiety

I had one of those dreams this morning that you think are 100% real, even a few seconds after you've woken up. In the dream, I was about to have a mastectomy and I was lying in the hospital bed. The only reason I was nervous was that I figured it would hurt, I didn't even care about the Cancer. My doctor told me that an intern would be operating on me. She whispers that since the intern is pregnant and can't sleep, she is at the hospital all the time. I don't know if I would call it a nightmare, but it did remind me of another dream I had that I was pregnant and going into labor. My thoughts in that dream were, "I am not ready for this. Maybe if I ignore it, it will go away."

I know for a fact that watching Grey's Anatomy seconds before going to sleep triggered this dream.

No comments: